"By changing nothing, nothing changes.”
and something just clicked in me. I needed to make a change, or atleast try!
For a couple months now, I have been thinking about moving schools where I would be closer to home. I've looked at Columbia as well as in Branford and just kept thinking about it how much of a difference leaving my school now would be and chickened out... but on Monday morning, something just MADE me make a choice.
As I was driving to Live Oak, 33 miles to work I thought to myself- wow, I am really wasting my time, money and car miles- but not really wasting because I love my job, the people I work with and of course my students but I could be using that time spent driving/traveling getting ready for my students, with my husband and time on myself in the morning.
Anyway I could use that time SPENT, it is time that I am safer. It is time I can reflect on myself and my classroom.
but change is a huge step- and if anyone knows me, I am scared of hate change. I like being constant and I like knowing the known...and that is where I am now. I am an emotional mess because I do not know what is next in store for me.
I have put in my transfer and told my principal of my motives. Was given her blessing but then told I was THREE days to late to be automatically transferred and that I would have to interview with the other 8 applicants that applied for the 3 open positions...and this is all I have heard.
"The jobs close on Monday, June 11th- you will get an interview right after that"
I can tell you this, I am confident. I know that I am a very eloquent and articulated speaker/interviewer and I am confident I know my stuff when it comes to education and teaching. I am also apart of the 5% of teachers that hold a master's degree in my district- and probably the only one that is interviewing. I actually believe the majority of the interviewees are future 1st year teachers- so me with 3 years of experience, I have a little bit of an advantage :)
I am just nervous, I guess. Scared of rejection. Scared of not loving that school as much as I love the one I am at. Scared that I will go in and no one will like me.
but I am ready for change. I am ready to be closer to home. I am ready to be NEW.
I found this quote and it fits amazingly perfect to what I am feeling right at this moment.
Anyway I could use that time SPENT, it is time that I am safer. It is time I can reflect on myself and my classroom.
but change is a huge step- and if anyone knows me, I am
I have put in my transfer and told my principal of my motives. Was given her blessing but then told I was THREE days to late to be automatically transferred and that I would have to interview with the other 8 applicants that applied for the 3 open positions...and this is all I have heard.
"The jobs close on Monday, June 11th- you will get an interview right after that"
I can tell you this, I am confident. I know that I am a very eloquent and articulated speaker/interviewer and I am confident I know my stuff when it comes to education and teaching. I am also apart of the 5% of teachers that hold a master's degree in my district- and probably the only one that is interviewing. I actually believe the majority of the interviewees are future 1st year teachers- so me with 3 years of experience, I have a little bit of an advantage :)
I am just nervous, I guess. Scared of rejection. Scared of not loving that school as much as I love the one I am at. Scared that I will go in and no one will like me.
but I am ready for change. I am ready to be closer to home. I am ready to be NEW.
I found this quote and it fits amazingly perfect to what I am feeling right at this moment.
Pray for me.
Pray that I get what my heart desires <3
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