I am sitting here- reading the two posts below this and beaming with joy!

On June 8th- we found out we were pregnant :) YAHOO! God is amazing. =0)

I couldn't believe it happened so soon- was only 2 months after our wedding but we are both super excited. I am BEYOND excited yet also nervous too.

Vernon says I need to stay off the internet...and I know I do. =P

I think my biggest fear is miscarrying. I read 3-4 places that 1 in 3 women miscarry. =(

How scary is that! and I know at only 5 weeks (TODAY!) I am still far away from being safe but then I just have to breathe and know that God is in control and I am trying very hard to have a textbook pregnancy. I am trying to eat very well and drink only water, milk and juice. I am super excited. I so want this baby!

We told everyone last weekend and everyone else is super excited as well. =0)

Our first appointment is Tuesday morning! YAY even though they are just going to confirm I am pregnant and take some blood work- I am super excited to just know that everything is a-okay and of course schedule my ultrasound/sonogram appointment..=)

not thrilled about my "physical exam" appointment though...=/ I have been debating on whether or now I want to say no to it. I just had one in Feb and everything was fine. I don't want to put myself at a risk of miscarrying or get bad news about my cells and worry for the next 8 months about something I can't control.

Hopefully after 3 years of normal paps- I will still be in the clear! I just do not want to deal with what I dealt with in 2008. It was an emotional rollercoaster that I do not want to ride again and I also do not want to go through paps over and over and colpos every few months. I would rather just wait till after the baby is born but I guess we will see when that time comes...which I feel will be soon!

Dr office said Tuesday will be the first appointment then we will schedule another around 8 weeks and then ultrasound around 12...soo lots of appointments in a short time, but I am very excited! and just want to have a healthy, sweet baby <3

Change is a coming..

This past weekend I was browsing pinterest, yes- I am addicted, and seen this quote.

 "By changing nothing, nothing changes.”

and something just clicked in me. I needed to make a change, or atleast try! 

For a couple months now, I have been thinking about moving schools where I would be closer to home. I've looked at Columbia as well as in Branford and just kept thinking about it how much of a difference leaving my school now would be and chickened out... but on Monday morning, something just MADE me make a choice. 

As I was driving to Live Oak, 33 miles to work I thought to myself- wow, I am really wasting my time, money and car miles- but not really wasting because I love my job, the people I work with and of course my students but I could be using that time spent driving/traveling getting ready for my students, with my husband and time on myself in the morning.

Anyway I could use that time SPENT, it is time that I am safer. It is time I can reflect on myself and my classroom.

but change is a huge step- and if anyone knows me, I am scared of hate change. I like being constant and I like knowing the known...and that is where I am now. I am an emotional mess because I do not know what is next in store for me.

I have put in my transfer and told my principal of my motives. Was given her blessing but then told I was THREE days to late to be automatically transferred and that I would have to interview with the other 8 applicants that applied for the 3 open positions...and this is all I have heard.

"The jobs close on Monday, June 11th- you will get an interview right after that"

I can tell you this, I am confident. I know that I am a very eloquent and articulated speaker/interviewer and I am confident I know my stuff when it comes to education and teaching. I am also apart of the 5% of teachers that hold a master's degree in my district- and probably the only one that is interviewing. I actually believe the majority of the interviewees are future 1st year teachers- so me with 3 years of experience, I have a little bit of an advantage :)

I am just nervous, I guess. Scared of rejection. Scared of not loving that school as much as I love the one I am at. Scared that I will go in and no one will like me.

but I am ready for change. I am ready to be closer to home. I am ready to be NEW.

I found this quote and it fits amazingly perfect to what I am feeling right at this moment.

 

Pray for me.

Pray that I get what my heart desires <3